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Here's my personal timeline: • Worked in a basement in a stressful film job for 8 years • Became depressed in that job • Got into EVE online (it may as well have been alcohol, or crack) • Performance dipped further at job due to 24/7 thinking about EVE as my escapism • Jacked in Job • Moved back to parents (I was 30 at the time) • Took the first job I could find (that would allow me to continue my EVE habit) • Began working from home (web design) to supplement my income • Began to get busy • Began to get a sense of ambition and self-worth back into my life • Found less and less time to play EVE / wasn't as compelled to play it anymore • Went on eHarmony and met an amazing woman • Got engaged, and will be married in september 2012 • Emigrating to Australia in the summer I guess the thing I learned personally through my experience of depression, was that as I got depressed I looked for a means of escapism - anything to conceal my miserable existence from myself for as long as I could. Just so happens that I got into MMO's (specifically EVE) when it could just as easily have been drugs or alcohol. Looking back I wish that I hadn't succumbed to temptation and that I had had the balls to fight for what I wanted in life rather than just let depression take over me and push me into that state of mind. Things have worked out for me now, but it was a good 5 years of my life wasted as I went through the process, and I hope that I never go to that place again! (although sometimes it's tempting to slide back into old habits if theres a rocky patch) |
#8270880, By Velios Depression
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